Sept. 15, 2008 - That was then. This is now.

It's so strange to find things like this... I have looked through this folder before over this past year and I only found it today. It's one of those things that makes you go..."Hmmmm...?"

This was written September 15, 2008. 

My husband and I are having serious relationship problems. I have been praying, meditating and asking for guidance. I drew cards from my angel oracle deck, ask your guides, and trust your vibes deck on Sunday, September 14 – one of my Guide’s cards was “Sleep on it” – which I did.

At 1 a.m. I awoke to the sound of a doorbell ringing. The dog didn’t hear it and no one else even budged from their sleep. I checked the door – no one was there. I went back to bed and tried to fall asleep. I woke up again at 1:30 a.m. having a dream. I went into the bathroom and wrote it down. Then as I lay falling back to sleep, I had the following ideas/thoughts come to me. (I wrote these in the dark and was amazed how legible the words were and how much sense they made:

"I am a child of God. I deserve to be treated with kindness, dignity, respect, and compassion. I deserve to be completely cherished and adored. It is not okay for you to trample on my spirit. It is not okay to talk down to me – as I am not less than you. I am a child of God. At this time in my life I have come to realize just what that means. And, while I will always love you – as you are also a child of God – I cannot and will not allow this kind of behavior towards me. I know in my heart that this relationship has reached its end – as I have learned the lessons it was intended to teach me. There are no excuses that can be made for your behavior. I do appreciate that you want to figure out why you act as you do, but I am not able to subject myself to endure anything from those people I choose to have in my life except peace and joy. Anything else is contrary to my true self, and to my spirit.  It is my strongest desire that we can part with peace and love and not hold any grudge for one another."

Flash forward to now... 16 months later. This past year has been a wonderful learning experience. I am happily divorced. I am loving my life. What I have learned: Listen! Listen! Listen! Love and respect yourself. Things always work out the way they should.

Peace and love,

=)

Krissy