I have had the unnerving knack of choosing, dating... and too often marrying the most unhealthy people in the world for me. I can't understand it, really. I am relatively intelligent and, while not a super model, I am not hideous.
Why then, do I continually choose to have relationships with men who turn out to be... Hmmmm... let's see... abusive, controlling and cheating, an alcoholic, condescending and disrespectful? Not to mention the complete psycho I actually had the sense to not marry! And, it's not that I didn't try to make these relationships work. Counseling, therapy, books... and a partridge and a pear tree. Pretty scary, right!!??
It has been asked of me, "didn't see the signs before you were married?" Well, duh! Obviously not! For heaven's sake! I can't understand how a person can seem so sweet before marriage and then, like doppelgangers, turn into people you don't even recognize anymore.
I have actually learned so much and am grateful each day for the life I have. I have two amazing boys, one is grown the other one is in high school. Everyday is an adventure and I cherish each moment.
But believe me... this time, as I step back out into singledom and wade into the treacherous, leech infested waters of ... dating, I am going to be really cautious and very, very picky. I think I am up for the challenge. Or, I might just join a monastery.
