Friday night started out pretty good. After working 9.5 hours, I met my girlfriends for dinner and a drink after work while I was waiting for my son to decide when he wanted to be picked up from hanging out with his friends.
And then… I got the phone call. The one from the guy I went on a date with last week. The call then sent my beautiful, peaceful night into a frappin’ downward spiral... well, only for a little bit – until I came to my senses.
I have decided that I would not jump into a relationship quickly ever again, because that is what seems to have gotten me into trouble.... but I also strive to be honest and up front about things.
Lesson learned: You don’t have to tell a first date your entire life story. In fact... it’s best to leave that to the people you deem extremely trustworthy - because in untrustworthy hands, the very things you have struggled to overcome become weapons of mass destruction. The very things you have fought for and against can be held over your head in an attempt to make you feel less of a person.
Thank God I have learned my own value and know my own self-worth!
So I say to you... mister downtrodden, mister bring-down, mister negativity, mister judgmental... you have picked the wrong woman to mess with.
I will no longer allow anyone to attack my character, spirit or my mind. I know I have made mistakes, but I have learned from them. I know my life is anything but ordinary - and I rejoice in that knowledge. I am strong, courageous and confident. And I will be damned if I let some insecure, little man try to rip those triumphs from me. I have fought too long and too hard to have it become unraveled by the likes of you.
So, as you slither back into the crevice you crawled out from in the first place, take this into consideration... people make mistakes. It is not your job to dangle other people’s failures over their heads in order for you to feel better about your miserably pathetic little life. People should be applauded for overcoming adversity, not condemned because they faced it in the first place.
Thank you. Thank you for opening my eyes even more. Thank you for reminding me not to trust too quickly. Thank you for showing your true colors within a week, rather than months down the line. I appreciate that.
And I end with this. I am truly sorry you are in pain. But I am not the one who caused your pain. Lashing out at everyone for some other person’s faults is not healthy or constructive. Please know that I wish you no ill will. But also know that I will not EVER, ever put up with anything less than beauty and peace in my life.
Please take care of yourself.
Krissy
