Being whole

I am sitting and worrying and doubting - wasting my time and energy. I see that the calm facade I have created to show the world that everything is beautiful and perfect, appears to be cracking in places, right before my eyes.

But wait. Why I am allowing this? I actually now know my own self worth. I actually know and believe that I deserve all that the universe has to offer me - and that it is all mine for the taking.

With that being said, I cannot understand why it seems as though I am falling back into the deep, dark abyss of self doubt... 

Thank God it hasn't overpowered me this time. From far below I can see the surface of the water - the light dancing, stretching it's rays, reaching down to me... reminding me that I don't need any of this doubt or worry. No one can complete me, for I am whole beyond compare.

Why is it that I sometimes forget. How is it that I get caught up in the so-called magic... trapped as if captured in the stickiness of a spider's web and the more I struggle for answers, the more stuck I become?

I will be still. I will listen... listen to the guidance and energy that surround me. I am safe. I will not allow anyone to hurt me anymore. For it is within me to find my happiness - and that happiness is independent from everything around me. This I have learned. This I will remember.

For when it is right, I will not doubt... I will not wonder... I will not be afraid. When it is right, my heart will rejoice and then, and only then will I know the true meaning of love.

Peace & Love,

Kristina   =)

Life Is a Miracle

Life is a miracle

Intertwined with all of creation

Interwoven throughout the universe

Partaking of the spark of divinity

We are ALL miraculous

© Kristina Potts, 2009

Here Now

The midday sun is shining upon this life of mine

I can taste the warmth as it enters my soul

feel the light as I become whole

I realize now it has always been,

waiting... longing for permission to enter in

Not one precious moment will again be lost

Judging... wondering... are not worth the cost

I am here now – fully present

I am finally awake

© Kristina Potts, 2009

Finding beauty amongst the crap

I have been contemplating life a lot lately. I don't know if it's just where I am age-wise, or if it's who I have grown into during the trials and tribulations that have been my life.

Here's what I have been thinking... "Life can be as beautiful as we choose to make it." Sometimes it seems as if nothing is going right, as if the planets just don't seem to align in our favor - but it's at these very times we need to take a huge - enormous step back, pause and then rethink just where we fit into that alignment.

I have had to perform some sort of inner surgery on myself; removing the pain and past hurts and replacing them with only the beautiful parts of the lessons I have learned. Of course, that is not so easy, but it does get easier with time.

So... instead of focusing my energy upon what I had been thinking were a series of really, frickin' stupid mistakes I have made, I have decided to actively view them as amazing challenges that I have overcome and beautiful life lessons which have made me into the person I am now.

It does take practice to retrain our brains to be thankful for these hurts and to love and appreciate them, rather than to be bitter and angry about them. However, I know from firsthand experience that it can be done.

For years, I have told my boys when they were dealing with bully's or difficult children at school, that we really have no idea what that child's life is like when they are not at school. They have no idea if they go home to hugs or if they go home to abuse. I have reminded them that everyone has crap that they have to go through and to overcome - which is so true. But I also told them that when we get served up a nice, big, steamin' platter of crap - it is how we deal with it that defines who we are and who we will become.

I am not saying that anyone enjoys a big platter of crap, but you can appreciate that you were served it, and then send it away with love and be done with it, because you know that the crap will not serve you in anyway. Being upset or angry or sad about the crap only hurts us, as it steals away our energy.

So... my current and future goal is to be forever grateful for everything I am blessed to have in my life - even the occasional platters of crap - because, if you think about it, without the crap in the world, we wouldn't have fertilizer and, hey, look at all those beautiful flowers that grow up out of that very crap!

I love flowers!!  

=D

Peace out!

Kristina