I have had the unnerving knack of choosing, dating... and too often marrying the most unhealthy people in the world for me. I can't understand it, really. I am relatively intelligent and, while not a super model, I am not hideous.
Why then, do I continually choose to have relationships with men who turn out to be... Hmmmm... let's see... abusive, controlling and cheating, an alcoholic, condescending and disrespectful? Not to mention the complete psycho I actually had the sense to not marry! And, it's not that I didn't try to make these relationships work. Counseling, therapy, books... and a partridge and a pear tree. Pretty scary, right!!??
It has been asked of me, "didn't see the signs before you were married?" Well, duh! Obviously not! For heaven's sake! I can't understand how a person can seem so sweet before marriage and then, like doppelgangers, turn into people you don't even recognize anymore.
I have actually learned so much and am grateful each day for the life I have. I have two amazing boys, one is grown the other one is in high school. Everyday is an adventure and I cherish each moment.
But believe me... this time, as I step back out into singledom and wade into the treacherous, leech infested waters of ... dating, I am going to be really cautious and very, very picky. I think I am up for the challenge. Or, I might just join a monastery.
LOL. I am sorry. I was just thinking, why don't you tell everyone how you really feel?
ReplyDeleteI AM very sorry to hear that you have suffered so much misery with relatinships. Good to see you still have a sense of humor about you.
Laugh... and Learn - sure beats the alternative
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I understand how you feel. I have been married four times myself. Almost four years since the divorce and I'm finally getting back out into the world.
ReplyDeleteIt's been a long time since we have seen each other. Take care of yourself.
Your long lost cousin,
J.W.